We began the transition of Justin getting used to being home, going back to work, having a civilian life again. Times were TOUGH for us the first couple months. Words cannot explain what a soldier goes through coming home from a completely different world. I was used to being independant again, and he was not used to being home and "free."
Out of nowhere, I had been VERY exhausted for about a month and cranky beyond belief. I thought I was just going to have that time of the month any day due to my irritability and crankiness. Although I had stomache pains for well over a week, I noticed I was a week late. Once I stepped back to think and look at the calendar I realized I really was late and began to wonder. I had a trick in mind that worked in the past and was more of a funny joke rather. When I was late and made myself paraniod in the past, I just got a dollar tree test and BAM! The next day our lovely womanly friend arrived.
This time however, I was afraid to even test this theory again. Knowing my mother had a "tummy ache" and went to the hospital only to find out that it wasn't a tummy ache, it was ME! I was a little, well ok, a lot afraid I was pregnant as well. The very next day I couldn't stand the unknown any longer, I bought 3 tests.......
I followed directions to a T. Now came the wait. I anxiously waited in the bathroom at home alone, glancing and looking away thinking "a watched pot never boils...a watched test takes forever!" About the third time I looked I saw a single line....WHEW!! I thought, I washed my hands and glanced back for some reason..."WAIT ...WHAT IS THAT!!????" I thought to myself. A faint second line slowly turned darker. I was so afraid. Don't get me wrong, I love kids and most know this, but the tough transition we were going through and my husband trying to get used to being home I had NO clue how to spring this on him. ;)
All in all after knowing for a few hours and shock rubbing off, I began to get excited and couldn't keep quiet. I told one person and that turned to 5 as I began to share the happiness I felt with everyone once I went to the Doctor to confirm. =] Justin did have a hard time at first with the idea, due to an overwhelming change of worlds and only being home for a month before our little Gummi bear began growing. He is now just as excited as I am, and even more so some days. I find him rubbing my belly while watching tv, or just placing his hand on my belly because " I like rubbing your belly and trying to touch the gummi bear.... I'm trying to feel it move!" =]
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